almost sleepless in sauga...

My Horoscope courtesy of Friendster. LOL.


The Bottom Line
Keeping in touch with friends has fallen by the wayside. Get their updates now.

In Detail
The stars are telling you to keep an eye out for riches where you least expect them, although not on a material level. People, too, can be hidden treasures, especially if you know how to look. Someone you know casually may be unexpectedly delightful if you remain open-minded and flexible. In fact, you may just end up developing a great and surprising friendship with someone that you thought was unlikely to ever be a part of your life.

-Heheh I really like this one too. Especially the last part. I was feeling the same way (how freaky!).

....So anyways still here in sauga for this post. Just chilling with the fam here and sleptover. Almost didn't get sleep because I was talking about ghost stories LOL. Thank goodness for Broken Social Scene and their positive vibes in their music. Even if I wasn't talking about ghosts, listening to BSS' first album "Feel Good Lost" is the best way for me to sleep. OH YEAH!

"Swimmers" by Broken Social Scene is just FLOORING me this new album in general is getting better and better everytime I listen.

I definitely need to get back to Scarborough...j/k..or am I?

-one

"I was....waiting for you. I was....standing around. I was....getting older.
I was....going down. If you always get up late, you'll never be on time." - from the song "Swimmers" by Broken Social Scene on their upcoming self-titled album coming out on October 4th.

A week later and I still can't get over this bad beat....

Last Sunday, my friends and I had a little poker tournament at my house consisting of Phi, Gren, Markus, My cousin Hendrix, Liza and I. So anyways this "bad beat" I can't get over happens to be 100-200 blinds mark. I was 2nd in chips with about 8000. The hands were dealt and literally I'm smelling something wrong with this hand. I tell my friend Markus, that someone has a huge hand coming up and it's not me. Then I look at my hole cards.......POCKET Queens I have. Sure they look pretty but I wasn't sure still about this hand. So many times people had this hand on TV and they run into an even bigger hand. It felt like this was going to happen to me. I'm in the small blind and now Gren has raised all-in with about 1600 in chips. Now with Phi and Markus folding I could possibly make this head's up if I can get my cousin Hendrix (to the left of me) out of this pot. Taking a sec whether to take a safe look at the flop or to go all-in. From here on out it was LOGIC taking over and started to ignore my feel that I should fold this hand or at least just call the all-in bet from Gren. NO! I don't.....I reraise ALL-IN with 8000+ in chips. Hendrix taking a moment himself whether to call me or not and fold. I DIDN'T WANT A CALL from him. There were so many hands in his position to still beat mine. (AA, KK, AK, A or K high.) He called and it was KQ diamond suited. FUCK! I was thinking, sure I'm the favourite going in but he has killed one of my outs if he catches a K.

Flop comes out K 6 A.

Turn is 6.

River is K.

Hendrix won the huge side pot, eliminating me in the process. Gren surprised showed K6 os which made him Kings full of 6s.

So anyway I FELT that this hand was gonna break me more than make me. But the LOGIC took over and of course I was the favourite pre-flop. I know I played my best but I'm just frustrated that my first instinct was right all along and I completely ignored it. I was a FEEL player in the beginning. Ever hear the saying, "Sometimes it's better not knowing than knowing." Well in this case it feels true. If I learned anything it's I need to play with FEEL over logic, instead of LOGIC over feel. Congrats to my cousin Hendrix and Phi for splitting the first place pot.

LOL it's an omen I think. Pocket Queens aka "The ladies" aren't with me and not showing me love. But how can any player fold Pocket Queens knowing you have the best hand pre-flop? The scary thing is I called it before I looked at my hand that someone was gonna have a HUGE hand. The Queens were a curse in a blessed disguise. LOL.

sizzurp thoughts...

My Horoscope courtesy of Friendster...

Today's Forecast
Committing yourself to something for the long term because it's what everyone else does has never been your thing. Remember that if someone starts pressuring you to say yes before you're ready.

-In short. Fuck y'all! I'll do my thang and don't watch that. (Great horoscope! That's right on.)


Yeah fixed up my blog because it needed some much updating. (Notice my new header...) If only I could do FLASH too hahaha. I would of done an ugly flash intro probably. Anyways that is all for now. Stay tuned....this could just be it.

WATCH THE NEW MUSIC VIDEO by Jim Jones, Diddy, Jha-Jha and Paul Wall it's fucking crazy! Called "What you drinkin' on?" The song is off his new album "Harlem: Diary of a Summer".

If you didn't know about Dipset or been sleeping on them...WAKE UP! DIPSET is here to stay.

"what you been sippin' on? who you been smokin with? what gots you whack and all silly doing stupid shit? coz you ain't drunk nigguh, you little fuck nigguh. coz you ain't bad, you's a fag, you ain't tuff nigguh. I said, 'what you been drinkin' on'?" - jim jones.

still feenin' that PURPLE PUNCH.

whatever post

All these people drinking lover's spit
They sit around and clean their face with it
And they listen to teeth to learn how to quit
tied to a night they never met

You know it's time
that we grow old and do some shit
I like it all that way

All these people drinking lover's spit
Swallowing words while giving head
They listen to teeth to learn how to quit
take some hands and get used to it

You know it's time
that we grow old and do some shit
I like it all that way

All these people drinking lover's spit
They sit around and clean their face with it

You know it's time
that we grow old and do some shit
I like it all that way

-from the song "Lover's Spit" by Broken Social Scene.

timmy's session with old friends.

yeah these pics were taken on sunday at the local timmy's near my house. timmy's is to me like "the max" was to the saved by the bell bunch. it has been a long time indeed.





lisaann and I.



lisa, kat, bernard and a part of my face.



just remembering old times....


Now to change the subject. It's for a 'stop the presses...UPDATE. Hahaha I was so excited about "7/4" that I felt I should know what the lyrics were. So I type them up myself and posted on the official BSS message board on 'Broken Telephone'. (LOL yes this is JAYNESS long time reader, first time poster.) Check it out if you love the song. PEACE. (You kinda wished you had those 3 mins back for wasting your time reading this don't you? TOO BAD!)

stop the presses...

If you are A BIG FAN of BSS (Broken Social Scene) then head over to GALLERYAC.com because there is a free download of "7/4 (Shoreline)" as a promo to their upcoming cd. GET ON THAT QUICK it kills their version that they had on ZED.cbc.ca and that was fucking awesome too.

18 loops of this song b4 I go to bed.....I'm fucking serious-oh-SO-serious.

/nick -brokensocialite...

-arnelricardojunior... has changed to -brokensocialite...

-brokensocialite... is fucking going BONKERS! (heheh DRIX knows what I'm talking about WILLIS. LMAO!)

"It's a shoreline and it's high speed. It's a cruel world and it's TIME."

the amps. 7 beers. a coffee and a litre of water later....

okay it's 4AM and I finally uploaded 97 pictures from my digicam just now. took me almost an hour but whatever i'm still getting sober here. the pictures are taken at Phillie's Sports Bar in Scarbz (Markham/Lawrence Area). My cousin Hendrix is in a band called "The Amps" or "The Amps and a Drum Kit"....and they had a gig there 6 hours ago hahaha. First time I got drunk with my cousins.......I was so buzzed it was fucking crazy I'm telling ya. Now I'm here sobering up to tell you some of the tale but I'll let the pictures finish it.

Nuff pictures of the "TRIANGLE OFFENSE" (Joe, Hendrix and I)....the cousins you know how we DO! My cousin Hanna (Hendrix's sister) and her friends (Anna and Abigail), and Drix's friends from elementary and high school. BIG UP to Jona and Tracey they were cools STILLAGE. And before you mock me saying only 7 beers......DUDES I didn't eat b4 I drank. KAY! I didn't eat on purpose so I could get a good BUZZ and MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. I DID! this buzz was a home run thank you very much. So now for the Feature Presentation: SOME of the 97 pics I took hahaha. ***CAUTION - A LOT OF PIX. MEANS A LONGER LOADING TIME hahaha. PLZ BE PATIENT.

IF ANYONE WANTS ALL THE PICS THEN E-MAIL ME @ arjay83@hotmail.com with the subject "AMPS PIX PLZ". If you do that I'll zip them and send them to you. Peace.






























ohhhhhh man it's 5:40AM hahaha. I am finally sober YAY! GASOP is later on today hahahah poker/drinking session probably w0000000t! I'll crash for the sake of crashing but I can go 'til 8AM if I wanted to. Booooourns for the cancelled after-party but that's why I partay-hard-tay at the SHOW! Just buzzing in the moment having FUN.

Hey AUDREY! A big thank you very much, I appreciate the gesture for runnin to Timmys and for driving me home. :)

-arnelricardojunior..... is outro, LAITRO!

the weekend is about to begin again.

"guess who bizzack? still smellin' crack on my clothes. don't make me hafta relapse on these hoes..." -Jay-Z

Back from Buffalo and I'm so fucking glad I'm home. Yeah I love shopping there and all but yoooo there's still nothing to do there because it's a boontown. Was supposed to check out Seneca-Niagara Casino (the US equivalent to Casino Niagara....also near their side of the falls) but ran late for dinner at my aunt's house in sauga. Overall was wicked bought around $130 worth in USD but only claimed $10 LOL. That's how we do! Some peeps know how to run that shit too but that's another story.

I need a haircut! I feel like I'm growing a padawan ponytail here. hehe.

Blah I'm tired now......I wanted to say something but my train of thought has just left the station leaving me behind. Till the next train comes....

(Yeah this feels like it was a forced blog post. but fuck it LOL...)

just breathe...just BELIEVE.

today was a day like no other. the reason is because I had watermelon bubble tea with tapioca and lychee jelly. let me tell you for those who knew that i was craving this drink in how long? it sucked.....I should of got blueberry DAMN IT! my halo halo killed this watermelon drink. but i was in the company of good people, so all in all it was still fantastic. my friends kat and bernard (YAY! for them for rescuing me. LOL seriously I just needed to get out for a bit and chill.) picked me up and missioned it to DESTINY. it was their first time there and they were in awe seeing how nice of a place it was. talked for the most part and lost in one game of BIG 2. but I was glad to spend some time with my old friend Kat and Bernard (who i still don't really know but whom I have a lot of respect for). till the next chilling session...

hmmmmmmm the plans for CNE casino still looked good when I got home at 12:15am after bubble tea hehe. Joe didn't give into his temptation of going with his friend Ryu there and playing Casino War........damn. He would of probably went if I went......but it would be better if Hendrix came to. my cousin Hendrix is in town too but is busy with practicing for his gig on sat. night. can't wait for the adventure of the "triangle offense" decides to crash a b-day party hahaha. hopefully that story will be interesting.

G.A.S.O.P. in 4 days. check it out @ gasop.blogspot.com

Buffalo wayz tmrw morning (9AM!) and probably come back late at night. So whateves Treves I'll catch y'all on the FLIPside. (get it?......FLIP? I'm FiLIPino!!!!! ok ok ok.)

-arnelricardojunior... will be right back after these messages.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK! (aka the adventures of "capo status": the prequel...)

yeah I blogged about Mark's surprise party at Lady's house but didn't have the pics. Well here they are for your and my own viewing pleasure. Hahaha I came out of retirement.....you'll see what I mean. "Jayblazin" has come back for one more time nuff said.

the adventures of "capo status"

Last friday night I went to Mark's surprise party in Picktown. I got pretty messed up due to the CON. hahahah holy fuck i've never been that high ever. it beat the first time even.... Trippin balls, laughing as usual but then exprienced paranoia and fear for the first time hahaha. Got home around 2:30am and I was still fucked. When I woke up today at 7am it felt I still was kinda trippin. AND You know that was good shit and Mark was hilarious. "Hey look I'm Chuck Norris!" (he said it in a filipino accent hahahhaa it's so funny to see in person.)

So had my 3-4 hours of sleep and then got ready for the mission to RAMA. The group I went with took up the whole bus pretty safe still altho just being the only one who couldn't speak or understand tagalog. Even the pretty girls were speaking......DAMN! I can't get a break. Anyways I went the loner route once I got to the casino. Got my players club card and straight for the poker room.

Rama's poker room offered only limit poker. Games starting low as $2-$5 to $5-$10. Minimum buy-in for $2-$5 was $40. Hahahahha big mistake I made. I came in with the minimum and yoooooo the other 6 ppl at the table had stacks ranging $80-$200. LOL how was I suppose to do anything with little to no ammo now. Anyways folded trips and a straight in the first two hands.....ERRRR. I wasn't playing my game and got affected by the MONEY being bet each time. "Raises $6 more dollars" like whoa. That's a buy-in in my tournament right there hahaha. So 40 mins came and I lost it all. Left the poker room, left the hand, left the attachment of a loss at the table. Sure I was still depressed but that was because I didn't play to my potential. Walked around Rama like 5 times bored as fuck. It's pretty small though. I pictured it to be much bigger oh well. The only downer was the casino wasn't smoke free. "WOW not only can you double your money but also double your risk of lung cancer from 2nd hand smoke!" Went to the chinese buffet with the free lunch voucher I got for taking the coach bus to RAMA. It was good food but still felt like the worst part of the day.

So I ate alone in the corner hahaha. Everybody else went to the Canadian Buffet restaurant which they said sucked after they finished eating. LOL I told them about the Chinese Buffet and most of them didn't know there was one. OMG they were right beside each other!!!! Talked myself into going back to the poker room and at least make my money back. Went to the ATM took out $60 and with the $20 in my wallet still, that made it $80. "It's now or never." Entered the $2-$5 table with 80 chips ($1 each). The first hand was a bad beat and went down to 46-48 chips left. After that I just went GUNG HO. and 8 hands later I won 4 out of 8. One I bluffed and the 3 others were wicked hands. I ended up making my money back that I lost in the prior session in 25 mins with $2 profit. The player to the left of me (the player who gave me the bad beat) was very impressed with my style and commended me for taking a bad beat so well and to continue on winning pots, using position and having good instincts. I thanked him and really appreciated what he said even tho he didn't have to. I did what I wanted and I got what I wanted. To play poker with total strangers in a casino setting and to be shown respect among the other players. There was no bullshit and I played the best poker I could. I made my money back, that was my goal and cashed out with $122. Big ass smile on my face.... Now I can say I did that. I went to RAMA and won some nice pots. But the money wasn't important to me after everything. It was those moments where I had the game controlled and everyone did what I wanted them to do. It was such a rush. Looking forward to the next casino trip which will be @ niagara hahaha.

FIRKIN good time last night with the "Triangle Offense"

awwwwww Joe beat me to punch telling the tale of last night. the way he tells the story is to the point anyway. hehe thanks for my first pint glass fellas. I will call it my SUPER SHOT glass now. I'm feenin for some beer after last night hahahaha damn yoooo. LOL most likely tonight again hahahah. I'm like 2 more bottles away from being called a boozehound.

>>>>>>>>So anyways last night thought there was gonna be a poker session and it was just a chilling session. Like oh my goodness BOOOOO (the FUCk) URNNNNSSSS! My cousin Joe picked me up since we were both bored and missioned it to Rich Hill to complete the FORCE of the "TRIANGLE OFFENSE". (The Triangle Offense is a force like no other and not even the forces of good can stand up to us......especially at the poker table.) Continuing on we went to Joe's area after picking up Drix, basically around Yonge and Sheppard (UPTOWN!) where Joe went for High School@Cardinal Carter. 1st stop was THE Frog and Firkin and we got a pitcher of.....forgot what brand of beer we drank but fucking good none the less and a mountain of NACHOS. Crazyness. Still being hungry we went to Pizza Pizza around 2am. Then had Bubble Tea at "Not Just Dessert", which Joe told us used to be called "Just Desserts" but then bought out and then added the NOT and took away the "s" from Desserts hahahahaha. Had bubble tea......was okay still. Destiny near Pacific Mall still looking pretty good out of the other bubble tea joints I've been to. Got home around 3:30ish and fuck I was dead. Hahahaha it's always an adventure chilling with Joe and Hendrix. Till the next "Triangle Offense" episode.... hahahaha the "T.O." takes over the CNE CASINO?!?!?!?!? probably hahahaha.

Last thing BIG UP to my friend Mark. Happy Birthday yesterday MAN! you're one of the coolest people in the world. - a la from me "capo status" (DIPSET! BYRDGANG! EASTSIDE RIDERS!)LMAO.

-arnelricardojunior...is ALL-IN because he is impatient and is impatient because he just wants to get drunk and wants the 3rd place money to buy more beer right now. LMAO. ohhhhh no -arnelricardojunior has shown his hand too quickly and the tournament director declares it a fold....... STUNNING TURN OF EVENTS for Jay looks like he's still in it for another hand. "FUCK! GET ME OUT OF HERE! I wanna see some strippers! ........BOOBIES!" says the pro poker player Arjay who turned alcoholic after one beer. LOL. (long outro eh....sorry.)

Merci beaucoup....

to the ones in my life. i finally have the guts to write this down and probably won't ever again. so take it how it is hahaha.

my mom - the strongest woman i know. thank you for continuing to put up with me and not giving up. maybe one day i can tell you everything. i love you.

my dad - the biggest and corniest joker EVER! you are such a great father to liza and I even though you tho your dad (my lolo) passed away before you were born. we are so lucky to have you. thank you for being so understanding. i love you.

boogstar aka liza marie - we butt heads like the rhinos in the simpsons everyday. we both stubborn at times and I know I give you the hardest time but I'm glad we close and have our own language that only you and I understand. (mumblenese I like to call it.) Yes you are way cooler than me and I'm so jealous okay lmao. HATE YOU! hahah. You know what I mean.

phi anh (silent assassin) - the quietest guy ever..... a deaf man speaks more than this guy LOL. if you can trust telling a secret to a person, Phi is your man. The coolest guy right next to Richard Gere probably hahaha.

mike - i'm really glad we could become friends again. congrats on your 2nd child and all the best. your so lucky and I hope you know that.

niccolo - my bwoy since gr. 9. I have the greatest respect for you and know you are one of my honourary brothers. Pure Jokers hahahah. I think we laugh more than we talk hahaha. always love to shoot the shit with you.

rozeeta - my dear I can't thank you enough what you have done for me this past year. I will never forget it. I know we ain't as close as we were before but I'm glad to have meet a special person like you. you deserve the best.

gren - lol dude remember the time we first met and you told me to fuck myself? i still love that story. I don't know how we even became best friends after that year. one of the wisest peeps I know. I really value our friendship dude, even when you surpassed me in ball added that your 6'1 now FUCKER. Yeah I'm JEALOUS! But I'll take a win here or there out of 50 still when i face you in ball. P.S. You're a TOOL because you like TOOL.

markus - my guyanese brother who has some flip in him for some reason LOL. my confidant who speaks the shit and not the truth hahahaha. probably the only one who gets all my corny ass jokes. THANK YOU MAN! LOL. I'll be here all week........wait is this mic on? testing testing......... (Markus' reply: BOOOOOO! YOU SUCK! GET OFF THE STAGE!!!!!!!!!) DUDE your a breath of fresh air. Honoured to still be your friend. You know I love you.

lisa a.k.a. "GINA" - hey meng. WHHHHHHAAAATT! AYEAHHHHHH! OKKKKKKKAAAAAAYYYYYY! I love how you keeps it real. My poker apprentice.....I'm waiting for the day where you surpass me at the poker table. Thanks for putting up with my shit. BYE NIGGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

joe and drix - hahaha my cousins. together we are a force unmatched by anyone. even the forces of good tremble upon our presence LOL. The "triangle offense", "the gamalinda gamblers", "the darkside of poker" with our constant bullying and kamikaze like attacks. YOU GUYS :PWN!

ian - my oldest friend and a brother. PIMP status! I don't have to tell you because you already know. I don't know what I'll do without you as my best friend. (hahahah GAYNESS!) DUDE we are sitting on top of the world!

not last but not least either. to an old friend. I know we don't chill anymore. Years have gone by, things have changed but you as a person haven't changed a bit. I know we both joke around and we don't take much seriously, but when it comes to our our friendship I do. It is nice to know that you are still there for support. Thank you for letting me know....it really meant a lot. We have an unspoken bond that won't be broken. All the best in everything you do. I love you.

Sometimes a free therapy session with a stranger goes a long way.

Treked it to Yang's once again this afternoon and as always still the best restaurant in Toronto everytime I go hehe. Went to Markville and my oh my the mall was so dead. Visited my boy Nick at his work there whom I haven't seen in ages and seeing him in a serious manner at his work was a FIRST. LOL it was sooooo cool. Went to Wal-Mart to see if my friend from Seneca still works there but didn't see him. I DID SEE THO "COLDPLAY LIVE 2003 for $15.99" and like in Monopoly when I am the first to land on Boardwalk, "I BOUGHT IT!" bahahaha. Also got the Hot Chick for like $10 so it was pretty awesome........(Oh gawd I'm such a loser :P)

Well it's that time when things are changing again in the matrix.....I can feel it heh. In a week's time my perspective on things have already taken different shapes, forms and are now in strange and new places. Things will never be the same again and I definitely know it for sure. I have met someone recently that I have a great interest in. The question being whether I really like her has already been answered being that I AM INTERESTED (ahhhDUH!). Like who am I kidding, There's nothing wrong in seeing someone you like and wanting to get to know them better. Right now though having known or hearing about more break-ups then make-ups it kind of sounds discouraging wanting to get into a relationship. While there is an action there is also a reaction. I would like to think maybe getting to know this person is a way of balancing out breakups from before. (LOL what a load bull!) Thinking about it and the situation I'm in (sorta picklish with a side of HOLY CRAPSTER), it was gonna happen sooner or later. That is what it's all about.......living the moment and seizing the opportunity. "Sometimes in life, their are ASSHOLES who get what they want and have no regrets. And other times NICE GUYS have regrets at the end of the day." I'm playing the ASSHOLE card.


"I'll shake my cutie-pie fist at a waitress when I'm sick of the way that I've been. I think I'll go out and act anti-celibate and throw grenades at a christmas choir." - from the song "Animals and Insects" by The Stills.

what's with me and 4am?

up again hahhah big surprise! I can't sleep and no one is online only means one thing........I'm a vampire! LOL a vampire with no life? I think so.

this no life having vampire will go ahead and listen to trance on ETN.fm and ponder what if Peter Griffin and Homer Simpson were in a competitive eating match. Who would win? And also what do you think tastes better Duff Beer or Partucket Partiot Lager?

That aside let me have a Simpsons flashback when they went to Australia and visited a bar there.

Marge: I would like to have some coffee.
Aussie Bartender: Oh, Beer it is.
Marge: No, I said cof-fee.
Bartender: Be-errrr
Marge: C - Oooooo
Bartender: B - Eeeeeee

Still loving it. Tune it tmrw probably same blog time? same blog URL?

-arnelricardojunior is all-in and then you fold. PUSSY! haahahahah I had 2 4 os you piece of shit. lmao.

feels like i'm passing with flying colours...

The weekend looks to end on a MIGHTY FINE note. It's 4:00am got home around 3:20am from my friend Rose's b-day party in Sauga. First thing I did was get a good buzz. Ohhhh man I hadn't had one like that in the longest while. It was even better with such great people all around hehe. These peoples were so mature and a very social bunch. My friend Ian who was with me agreed that it was nice to get out of scarborough and have great conversations with a lot of people not from tha BORO lmao. We went to Timmys after the party got me an LARGE ICE CAP! So it looks like I'm not sleeping till 8AM probably. Some ppls at the party were feenin' some Texas Hold 'Em LMAO I knew I should of brought the chips. The Backstreet Boys music was killing the buzz and of course being me I was humming DIPSET tunes and dancing in my chair. Overall tho I had a great time and I guess the celebrant had a great time for a short while but I great time still hehehe. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSE.

YOOOOOOO Ian you are the man! I owe you one and thanks a lot again. Your loyality speaks volumes....

Adventure to RAMA coming up next weekend. Most likely be Limit Hold 'Em but oh well......I'll be going to work stillage hahahaha.

Final Thought: "Daydreaming and I'm thinking of you....." c'mon put your quarter in and press start. I'm waiting till I hear "HERE COMES A NEW CHALLENGER." LOL no one knows what I'll be talking about but of course this part is coded.

Till the next post..........Laitro. :P
-arnelricardojunior is ALL-IN and then you fold.

Who gives a fuck? I don't.....

"Sometimes you need to be an asshole to get what you want in life."

Which is how I am feeling just about at the moment. Some people in my life I think need to be weeded out seriously. Let me be clear on this I wish no ill will on anyone. It's just I have grew apart from some people and just feel there's no point chilling with them anymore. That's life. Shit Happens. Move on to the next stage.

Maybe I have gone a lil' colder since my friend has passed away but I think it just awoken something that has been dormant in me for a long time. I'm probably more blunt than I ever been in my life and call it what you want how my attitude is. I'm cocky, very opinionated and just not giving a flying fuck what anyone thinks and now not caring if there feelings get affected.

Taking out the fugazes, keeping the ones authentic. You know it.