"Misread" by Kings of Convenience

If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there
The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know?
It happened again

A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice
friendship is an end
What do you know?
It happened again

How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?

What do you know?
It happened again
What do you know?

"Save Your Scissors" by City and Colour

So go on
And I will refrain
And I'll keep on running this neverending race
maybe next time will be the right time
and maybe next time will be your time

So save your scissors
For someone else's skin
My surface is so tough
I don't think the blade will dig in
Save your strength
Save your wasted time
There's no way that I want you to be left behind
Go on save your scissors
Save your scissors

So why does it always seem
That every time I turn around
Somebody falls in love with me
This has never been my soul intention
And I have never claimed to have patents on such inventions

Just save your scissors
For someone else's skin
My surface is so tough
I don't think the blade will dig in
Save your strength
Save your wasted time
There's no way that I want you to be left behind
Go on save your scissors
Save your scissors

There is something that I must confess to you tonight
To you tonight
And that is I expect nothing less from you tonight
From you tonight

Go on save your scissors
Save your scissors
Save your scissors

I'm immersed with the thought of poking her.

it's back.
the passion I thought I lost.
now re-awakened once again in my soul.
reading the bets, i see my opponent stutter while betting.
recall kicks in! i read the body language.
looks like he betting with a big hand.
my opponent has a look of how much should he bet?
he counts his chips slowly. but the bet is small = "he wants me to call that!."
I pause and think for a sec.
"is it a FUCKING TRAP?"
I read the flop,
I have no outs,
no cards to beat my opponent's hand anyway.
I fold.
"you can't lose what you don't put in.....
but you can't win either."
next hand is dealt and I'm deciding to raise.
"take the RISK!" my intuition is telling me.
"BET, BET STRONG! and BET with BELIEF!"
never doubt yourself.
great players can smell fear with the bets.
i'm visiting the nation of domination,
and after 3 hands, victory is mine.
enter the rematch.
lady luck greets me with a wave and a beautiful smile to match.
I ask her to dance and she accepts.
Back to back wins.
I leave for home happy and still wondering will I ever see her again?
Time can only tell.
The moment is mine to keep and share.
Knowing forever, I just can't deny it anymore.
It's meant to be.
Yet how a tangled web we weave...
I've missed you.

Love is in the air....everywhere I look around...

My friendster horoscope for today.

Taurus (Apr. 20 to May 20)

The Bottom Line
Today be sure to show your affection freely -- and often. Hugs and kisses are free.

In Detail
Prepare yourself. The heavens have arranged for a special dose of magic and romance for this Valentine's Day. All your feelings will be especially potent, too, thanks to the perfect astrological recipe for love -- maybe even love at first sight. If you're single, on the other hand, don't be depressed, and don't you dare stay home tonight. Your Valentine may be out there looking for you -- but remember, you can't win if you don't play.

Response
Bullshit! I'll prepare myself instead for my fucking mid-terms. I don't fucking care about today, is my Valentine gonna get me the 4.0 I need?!?!?!?! well.....is she? NO!!!!
And plus I have to stay home tonight to finish an assignment.

>>>Now I'm concluding that friendster's horoscopes might be true to most but they are very disappointing afterwards. I gotta stop believing in this crap seriously. (SAVE ME GEEBUS!!!!!)

:P I'm not that depressed sheesh. Happy Valentine's Day to you couples out there......I hope you get pricked by rose thorns and die....laughing...because of the mess you made....cause there's blood on your t-shirt.....and it's white....makes you look like a fool, LIKE A FOOL I TELL YA!!! Muahahahahahah!!!!

I'mma go now....

gangsta...

anniversary of an uninteresting event....

it happened again...forcing myself to believe that there was something when there truly wasn't. I should of known because I catch myself doing that, when I used to play poker with my style of play. this hand wasn't right at the time but I tried to make something happen. I bet at it, calling and calling, going into the flop and then the turn.....still nothing.

the feeling overcomes you that you know you should fold. BUT STILL you even waste time contemplating, whether or not to stay in the hand and call the big bet anyway. soon hopefully realizing we have to live to fight another day, letting the feeling go and fold the hand.

bleh......

I wish I could give this feeling....I wish I could give this feeling.

Honestly it feels like I'll be forever trapped under an avalanche of homework. and forever meaning the next 3 months.....ARRGGGHHH. Seriously I need to get out and get drunk QUICK TIME! for shiz! J/K for now, but reality takes over and I will become a humble student again constantly learning and always trying to recall what I have read.

Fuck now I have blogger's block.......

b00m! right on the kisser!

My horoscope for today:

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

The Bottom Line
The shopping siren may be calling, but don't rush out to buy anything just yet.

In Detail
Some problems aren't really problems at all. It depends on how you look at them. For instance, you could get yourself into a bit of trouble if you're not careful now -- because you're attracted to someone who's not quite available. Of course, this is the kind of trouble that could be fun. The flirting, the glances, the not-so subtle comments. Just don't act on that attraction until you're both free. Think of how you'd feel....

Jay says, "DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bahahahahhahahaha. How does friendster know this shit?!?!?!?"

>>>>>>>> (Going off-topic) Yeah I'm supposed to be in accounting class but I need to study up for Math Quiz today. Get this.....I go to accounting to hand in my Chapter 1 and Chapter 2 assignments all together. I'm there at 7:45am and class starts at 8. Fucking teacher is 20 mins late for class and when I tell him I can't stay for class today the man looks down on me. Already judging me and tells me to leave his class trying to make an example out of me.
Man doesn't fucking know me.... I'm killing myself for that class and I want to take a day off to study another important subject (MATH!), he was the one fucking late for his own class.....and he's judging me. I'm not impressed at all. Dirt off my shoulder and I'll spit on that....believe me! *Middle fingers in the air and I wave them like I just don't care.*
I know I'm majoring in accounting but daymn I have 4 other classes to think about as well. *shrugs*

Well tomorrow is a new day and hopefully "WoW girl" is there to distract me. There must be an astrologist with psychic powers working for friendster because that's right on the money. HAH!

back, back, forth and forth...

Finishing up a report just now and 3 more on the way. Which means I'm in serious MODE for a couple of days. I might be pissed off due to a lack of patience I have lately and stressing about maintaining a great work ethic. For the past two days I've been playing VS. system during my school breaks because it's the only thing that relaxes me. (Yes I'm playing against myself LOL.)

It might be a couple of days, weeks or even this whole semester when I'll be PMSing. I might push friends away on purpose. I'm trying to keep it simple and to keep my attitude as positive as I can. I'm TRYING believe me!!!! (It's hardly ever simple in the game of life unless you live in a bubble heheh.) I got to get my life back on track and start making moves. "It's a chess game NIGGA! and I'm a KINGPIN out to win."

Time to have more Timmy sessions and stay focus on homework just like last night. (Big up to Ian!) The large Green Tea helping me with my accounting financial statements! YAY!

Side note: Damn you Ian for proving me wrong. Hahahaha fucking jokes man making me out to be the bad guy....fucker! >:) LOL you know me too well BRO! :D