Fade to black....

I just don't know what to say anymore
Nothing fully planned out, I am just going with the flow
It has always been that way and always thrive on doing whatever in the moment
I continue to face criticism in every turn
I pushed out the haters and embrace my supporters
For it is them who keeps me in line and my sanity intact
I have faith in someone who will understand me
Tomorrow is already today and I can see it in the corner of my eye
To turn around and see for myself is seeing my future
A future that starts into my present situation when I look into their eyes
I have this feeling that everything is right on schedule
For it may be the thing I have been searching for my whole life
and yet I totally deny it because I don't want to jinx it
What was I talking about again????

no more punches needed

I don't want to know anything about you anymore
I want you out of my life so i could move on
you weren't real to begin with and my mind played tricks
however even though you hurt me I can say I've learnt a lot
I know now that actions speak louder than words
and all you had was words even up to now
you said you wouldn't know what to do without me in your life
and yet you don't show or prove it
I wish I could be the friend we both wanted me to be
I can't, it would totally be a lie in my mind
I wish you well in your life without me in it
I'm done with this all

happened in a blink of an eye.

kicking and screaming, my mind ain't right
complications on my mind, can't see no light
I want my freedom, I want my right
I want my glory and be out of sight
true expression on a poetry level
with higher bass and lower treble
flying high like an angel but yet a sneaky devil
rebel without a cause who slams the pedal
put your trust in me as I give you my hand
not enough time, there goes down the sand
in a hourglass, so fast, flashin' it on land
searching for answers, a need to understand
say goodbye to love as it runs from you
nothing associated, you know your through
no doublemint, no dream came true
lost memories leave you angered and blue
can't focus no more, days seem too long
those who survive are those who are strong
a need for therapy in form of song
and passin da dutchie with a sing along
not a bittermelon, just sauerkraut
and taking it out with a great big shout
representin' what the tribe is all about
cause they know how it feels to be stressed out
pencil crayons and markers I do adore
candy coloured life beyond that door
walking toward because I'm ready for the tour
done with this rap even though you want more

lookin' for the perfect beat

been quiet for a minute, had to analyze a lot of things
drama won't be over until a fat lady sings
I heard her finally and she belted a big one
she let me know this mind shit was over and done
I turned to the sun that was bright and awesome
I'll be out dancing to my headphone eargasms
ready to write, was inspired by a dream
sexy mocha girl putting on triple bean cream
she asked me help her and I happily agreed
she wanted to get out of this dream and it seemed
she's been stuck in my dreams as a fantasy
wanting to be free and become reality
I woke up with hope that's she waiting to be found
I put her on mind loop because I want her around